Thursday, August 31, 2006

Dude!!!! Wats wrong with you???

Getting a Bike is by far my second best decision at Joka the first one offcourse is when i took Enviromental development as my elective. But still the worst decision is getting a Tata indicom connection ...god knows wat was i thinking. BUt like many other Indians i also got decieved by Kajol's pretty smile and her intoxicating eyes.When she said "2 saal tak tan tana tan" i thought she was talking specifically to me. BUt like many other mistakes in my life I m going to rectify this one too by getting a new reliance connection.

But my life is on an emotional roller coaster ride and the hardships in this place are immense. The long night outs of cag sessions with ur frnds and then the horrifying moments of classroom when u try to stay awake by pouring coffee in ur food pipe. The sense of satisfaction of seeing smone smile and the frustation of watching someone everyday and my inability to talk to her. The groovy moments when u are enjoying on a weekend with ur batchmates and then suddenly u realize u have a submission on monday and life goes on...........

Father called me up and he said how are ur mid sem marks ??? I said i guess they will let me stay here for another sem(coz u get kicked out of the institute if u flunk in two courses). He got all furious "u will never be serious in your life when will u start acting responsibly". Everyone expects you to be focussed and be clear about what u want out of ur life. But is it that easy....no its not.

Being the youngest kid in the whole Khandaan responsibilty is one word which was out of my dictionary. Only responsibilities in my life at home were to get good marks, dont indulge in any fight with my sisters and get AALU pyaaj from the market. Now since I m in a hostel since 2002 all these above things are also gone.Though parents still want me to study a lot but .........

Forget family members here even the seniors wants us all to be so serious. Everytime u go into a presentation three magic words appear in frnt of u FINANCE, CONSULT ya MArketing and everytime this thing comes in frnt of me I feel like Sita Mata giving agnipariksha. Asking me abt the details of these three fields is like askin Udham Singh Tau about the latest Jamelia video. Still i hv to make a choice.

But the good thing is I have an option of making a choice here but wat abt those things on which we have no control....like India losing to pakistan, Tussar kapur getting new movies, my mom's liking for kahani ghar ghar ki and meeting smone who suddenly becomes so imp in ur life tht one word frm her can make or ruin ur day.

But i wont bore u guys with the senti menti stuff here mainly coz of two reasons.
1) i dont want my stupid frnds to get back to me after reading this ....aise bhi they already rip me off a lot in the wing

2) I knw how boring it is to read abt smones feeling given the case its not MILLS N BOONS.
Its 5:30 in the morning n i can listen the birds chirping and Gecko of the Bastard "Butt for brains" lizard which is there in my room. The song I m listening to is " Hands of time frm A lot like love ...and every nerve in my eye is telling me to go to sleep otherwise i will miss tom stats class.....

13 comments:

Nizam said...

You've been bitten dude....and now u will hv to go thru a cycle of emotions u wont hv a control on.....but u need any theories...I m there ;)

starry nights said...

You will meet that important person in your life who will hopefully make every day a happy one.take cae and you do need to study well. opportunities in life come once and you need to make use of it while you can.sorry did not want to sound like your mother.just a piece of advice.

Anonymous said...

What exactly r u trying to do. Don't go overboard and overenthusiatic to do something repentable for u and those close to u.

Ankit said...

@nizam teri theories to hamesha in demand hain :)

@starry nights : no way u are not sounding like my mom n thnks for the suggestions :)

@anonymous : Dude I m not tryin to do anythin i just write stuff wat i feel like n i guess this is why we all write blogs.... waise who are u..a name wud have helped :)

coming back to life!! said...

dude..didn't knew before cming to dis place that u write so well ow wud have followed ur blogs long bak..none the less..its never too late to start something and i'll start off by wriring my frst comments for you..hmmm i read ur last blog and i must say that it was impressive...u have a genuine flair for writing...inspite of the fact u keep on telling me all the while that u dnt wanna write abt her in the blogs but u really cant help it....can u;)...it invariably is der in ur subconcious mind and hence the effect can be seen...:)...neways it was a nice read..a gud break from the cash flows..:P.....will try to catch more ou ur earlier ones now..waiting for the next one...Cheersss!!!!

sanely insane said...

feelings are great..they make u feel mushy mushy and happy. But what needs to be remembered is to 'move on' in life.Its tough dude but there are always good things to take from ur relations and live with them all ur life..so cheer up
live for urself..u have already proved ur worth so many times..u dont need to do anymore for others.
beware of bird shit in b/w

Pousumi said...

nice post...reminds me of my college days when just before the exams i used to go," hey bhagwan is baar bacha lo, next time se i will definitely study".
Well you do your studies good and have loads of fun.
Sorry to know that the chipkali is still chipkofied in your room.( i think i read about it in one of your earlier blogs).

Ginni said...

hey dude.. well can imagine ur situation,, same case here NO PURPOSE,, on personal front,, be sure only then approach... I got kicked pretty bad..

Sumit said...

yeah.. better get some sleep :P

anu said...

dude wots wrong wid u ?? whr is d update ??

amu (amrita) said...

look ...if you want to shake off the spiralling frustration, get rock-the-bottom jim. go ahead and talk to her. or else yein frustration will not let you rest in peace. u r smitten by a bug that's plain, do smething otherwise u'll turn geeky.

Strictly for my friends said...

You're in loooove!! Wonder if it's a "Bong" babe, that you were on the lookout for all this while!

:)

Glad I'm out of the "studying" loop...though I'm not so happy I like the "working" loop any better! Enjoy while you have it!

Shakhi said...

Enjoyed your post as usual!Well,seems like I really have been away for a long while yaar, a lots has been happening in your life! great going!
Enjoy every little thing in life,a sweet smile, the unspoken word, the fleeting glance! But don't forget the hopes and dreams in eyes of your mom and dad as well!